Let’s just say I am a bit irritated by all of these “things” like…Why am I expected to put on makeup and focus so much on looking good? Why am I expected to wear high heels at a formal event? They were created for men originally. I don’t care if this is gonna be controversial, I hate this. Why does it matter so much how I look? Why are some guys telling me more compliments on my looks rather than on who I am? Why am I expected to be this pretty thing? Don’t get me wrong, I know that I can do whatever the hell I want to and everyone should be able to but …
Sometimes I do feel like I am expected to be a certain way just because I am a girl.
Like prom for example. Yes, I did wear my high heels and dress and I had to put on makeup and stuff, it was fun in a way but Gosh darn did I hate those shoes. I love my hoodies, my boots, my jeans and my Rocker jacket. I guess I am quite boyish and sometimes I do “compromises” as my friend said in order to look good but I am quite boyish. “Sometimes I feel like all society wants me to be is this pretty thing.” Why is it that a “girls’ day” consists of getting your nails done, hair done and shop for clothes. It is like a girl is expected to make her appearance a high priority. Why? A guy’s day consists of doing something fun like bowling or I don’t know. There have been guys who kept texting me, kept saying “May I see you?” which is a trick to be honest. The gist of it is that they just asked for pics and wanted to see me and they didn’t even care for who I was really. There wasn’t a question about what I loved to do or my life. It was simply based on looks. I do put an effort into my looks these days but I can do so much more than that. I am so much prouder of the things I have achieved and learned to do than my appearance.
I can be pretty if I try I guess but I am so much more than that.