Man, I have changed a lot. Two years ago I was 16, almost 17. It seems like such a long time ago. Even months ago I was a different person. This summer was such a turning point for me with camp and my former crush and just everything. I finally became the person I have always wanted to be. I used to be very conservative, not wanting to break the rules. I was a goodie goodie. Two years ago I had my worst grades because of my depression, last year was like amazing regarding my grades but as I said earlier I became sad because of that. Overall I would say that I became way more confident than I was before. I still have a long way to go but I am happier. I am also working on my happiness. I am way more outgoing. Summer was just biking, hanging out with friends and having the most fun I have ever had in my life. I feel like I did some fun, “forbidden”, crazy stuff that is going to be amazing to look back at when I am older. I dyed my hair purple, got a tattoo, wrote on a wall, was in a play (and will be), went to TULIP (the best week), got a bit tipsy with some of my guy friends (the things that happened are between us), actually went out with my former crush. The list goes on. I am just living, man. Life is so goddamn short. People think they have time. We don’t. Therefore I do the things I really wanna do. In that exact moment. I was scared before. Now I do things despite the fear. I say yes. Getting a tattoo was terrifying. I was so anxious like 5 days prior. But I did it because “life”. You gotta live, go on adventures. Kiss the person you want to kiss, tell them you like them, get the tattoo, leave school for adventures. Do it all. NOW! In the end we truly only regret the things we didn’t do. What is good about postponing everything? In the end, nothing really matters because we are only temporary. Don’t get locked up or hurt anyone, otherwise, do everything you ever wanted.
Lastly I’d say that I am more and more myself every day as time goes on. I don’t want to fit into any box or live according to anyone’s expectations. People see me as this caring, good, happy person which I am but since I started high school I do lots of “bad” things which I love. I am an Angel (kinda sounds cringey sometimes) but I do have the devil inside of me as well. If you really get to know me, I can be a troublemaker.