I am going to use this opportunity to write my way out of things. I really haven’t been the best at blogging this week. Thank God you can schedule articles and they will get published. I was really busy. I had the written part of my final exams. I had three coffees yesterday and I was still exhausted. Today wasn’t better either. I am just so freaking tired man.
Anyway, I like this question. Thanks to whoever chose it. Lately I have been feeling as if I was stuck in the same place mentally and physically. Therefore I wanna do something you know. Let’s say I will be 29 in 10 years which sounds really scary. I will have graduated university. Hopefully I get into the school I really wanna get into. I truly hope to have written and published my book. At least one of them. That is one of the areas where I feel stuck. One thing is to write a book and another one is who is going to buy it. I really want to get better traffic here on my blog so that hopefully the people who read this blog would maybe like to buy the book as well. But I have had it for over half a year on this platform and it is miserable. I don’t know how to get out there. But I got myself into this. I was the one who wanted a worldwide platform. Now I just have to “make it” here. I am not giving up. I will figure out a way to get out there. Maybe people aren’t interested anymore. It is sad to say but maybe when I was in a much worse place in my mind, more people were interested in what the chaos was about. Well, that is human nature. I am sick of myself, too. I feel like I was always changing and I never liked change ironically. Now I crave it. I really wanna do something. Don’t know what exactly yet. But back to the topic. I also hope to find a partner until that time and maybe even get married and have a kid. But if I find someone that will be a huge accomplishment as well. I hope to have painted a ton of paintings and maybe even make up some really good ones and sell prints or something. And you know what? Until that time Imma get so good at playing the guitar. I am getting one this summer. Can’t wait. ROCK ON BABY. I hope to be great at skating, too. Trick as well. I hope to have a great fitness body and OVERCOME MY EATING DISORDER! I really wanna get rid of that. And I also hope to have made a shitton of memories from crazy nights with my friends. Kiss some guys probably as well – not like random dudes but like, you know what I mean. ALSO! I will have a lot of tattoos until that time. You know what the funny thing is? I never wanted tattoos really. It only started like a year ago. Well, life is funny like that. Yeah, that sounds about right. This is exactly what I want my life to be. I am quite excited about what is to come. What I know for sure is that people say these are the best years of your life. They are great but I will always want to have the best years of my life because a number is not going to stop me from living life.