The truth is that I truly used to consider myself the victim which can be kind of fair because I don't wish what happened to me upon anyone. I used to be so depressed and I wanted to be depressed because I thought it was necessary. I was waiting to be happy after certain things … Continue reading The TRUTH about everything – part 2 – Mental Health Mondays
Prom happened. And with that other things as well. I am telling you, no boys like me. I don't know why which is the reason I am writing this. You see, we had some of our former classmates there and both of them guys wanted to dance with my friend. It is fine of course … Continue reading Diary Days – n. 13 – Boys don’t really LIKE me
My Eating Disorder is really just having fun with me these days. I feel really messed up because of thsi guy and I am simply not in the mood to eat. I am also really really nervous because of this programme on the prom thing and I just don't wanna look bad in the dress … Continue reading Diary Days – n. 12 – My ED Recovery and prom is coming
To be honest, I don't like that I have these disordered thoughts, the fact that I actually felt so bad that I self harmed, that I was so depressed each and every day that I couldn't focus on studying, the constant body checking and mostly what started it all. You know, I would have never … Continue reading The TRUTH about everything – part 1 – Mental Health Mondays
Back then when I would ever get into the weightloss process or even during the worst parts of my ED everything was for the wrong reasons. It was about a number. It was about the way I looked in the mirror. It was to compare myself with other girls. It was about impressing a guy. … Continue reading My Weightloss Goal
Well, the truth is, feelings and emotions are really powerful. The funny thing is, they are simply a mix of chemicals in the brain and I have so many emotions and also I am very bad at chemistry. Getting over someone is one of the hardest things you'll ever have to do. It is even … Continue reading How to get over someone you really loved?
I wish I could control it. I do. But I can't. I can control my anxiety to a certain extent but not all of it. I can control some things that cause it but not all of it. I feel like I am going nuts right now. I managed to conquer my social anxiety but … Continue reading Diary Days – n. 11 – My Anxiety is sky high